life in life

Excruciating!

Tiring!

Exhausting!

After the exam preparation, the exam, their (their???) retreat, and all those things that compensates my whole week, it’s time to pamper myself with enough rest. Rest? Sighs, I really wish I have enough time to sleep amidst this research paper (regarding the 2010 Philippine Election) I’m trying to make now. I have no choice but to finish this now and submit it on Monday (when in fact, the deadline was Wednesday of this week, Feb 25). I was just given the chance to pass it late because of some reason. That’s why whether I like it or not, I should be finishing it by Monday.

I must admit, I can consider this week as one of the most terrible week in my life. I was shivering due to the coldness of the Annex Library during my stay there for about a quarter-day. The way my accounting exam (PS) had turned out. The unexpected encounters, the talked-about text message, the reported actions. Everything. Absolutely everything!

Well, I’m looking forward for our Church session tomorrow wherein I will not be thinking anymore of the research paper (because by that time, it must be done), and aside from that, I just want to have time to let my emotions be lifted to Him.

Monday will open the new week for me, hope it will turn out good and fine. I really hope so!

leave out all the rest

Emotions are bursting.
Countless fears hinder me on broadening my views in life.
We make investment every other way, we engage ourselves into something we thought can make our lives better. We succeed, we failed, most importantly, we LEARNED.
"We should possess the OTHER on us", as what Paulo Coehlo wrote in his book. We should always be ready to conquer our fears and hurdle every challenge that can possibly come our way, in short, we should always BE READY to be hurt and accept every consequence that corresponds to the action we have taken.
(So much of the introduction....)
Do you feel what I felt? Probably not. So, there would be no enough sense for me to talk about anything that clogs everything in place.
But I really have to. I don't know why but...

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There are many things in this world reserved for us, we should not take seriously the realms existing, there's so much in the world that awaits us. Is there really?
Any relationship entails TRUST. And trust entails a lot of things. Is trust easy to gain? Or is it easier to give?
I've given my trust. But I don't know if I received some. I've shared my thoughts and my queries, tried to converse even if I'm reluctant to speak for what I felt, and tried to please every single guilt. But have I done my part? Does the story unfolds what I deserve? Will it end the way fairytales of Edgar Allan Poe or Hans Christian Andersen ended? I REALLY DON"T KNOW. Everything was drown with vagrancy, so contrast to the assurance I felt before.
I'm afraid to fail, I'm afraid to get back on the way I've taken before (it's not what you think), is everything tantamount to all the doubts I felt? Or I just need to take another step forward instead of going back, will I do it, then?
But lately, I've realized what I should realize. There is really more to life than what prevailed in the past, it is better and more worthy of being treasured and kept. What do I mean? I've got the bests of friends this world had. The people who know how to accept you as you are, the people who understand your jokes, the people who understand your feelings, your emotions, and the people who never left you behind. I must admit, I faced circumstances just recently, but we fixed the crippled part with ease and considerations (and I hope we understand each part of the story now). I've learned to extend the premise of my understanding, of my discerning abilities, and not to close doors for any possibility.
I've learned from my mistakes, and from what I went through. It's not easy, but now, I'm willing to take another step towards discovering the candor of the new dimension.

after all

its been quite a long time....

it's more than a month ago when i last updated both my friendster and this account (MULTIPLY), there are just stupid reasons that interfere me on updating it....but so much to that...

i got lot of tings to do just to improve everything on my account, i have not write my reviews yet, my funny and serious experiences, i haven't even posted the latest trailers of the must-see movies this year....Hahaiz, its really frustrating, but its ok...i will do it, and i got to do it sooner or later.......

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