AT LAST

"No man is an island"


"Man cannot stand alone"

"The more, the merrier"

Any other thought that would contrast to what I believed in (or should I say to "how I used to live my life)?

Yes, I'm not used to believe on those ideas. Why? I don't know. Maybe because of the mere fact that I'm used to be with myself, and myself alone.

I don't believe in friendship cause I don't have any then (aside from my family and relatives). But I know for a fact that I'm looking for some whom I can call that way or the other. I never think that life is boring without someone to talk to, to share some thoughts with, to laugh and maybe cry with. Until I face the biggest struggle of my life (so far), there I've realized that I needed someone to talk to, someone who can dare to listen with my endless worries and fears.

That exact moment, I was introduced to the concept of friendship. It was my time to explore it's world, to know it's beauty and to reach it's limits and boundaries.

But my doubts and questions interfered beyond that moment: What if I got OP? How will I start proper friendship? Can I make friends without talking that much?... A lot of questions bothered me for long. But as reluctant as I was that time, I still manage to advance one step.

A start of something new, maybe it was.

Friendship comes with no price, with no condition, no speculation, prevailing no high expectations. That's how I knew it. That's how I foresee it.

I found friends and became a friend to them, doing everything that I can just to fulfill my worth as a friend. Extending a hand, giving advice, accompanying, and being the "best" friend this world can have. But as life unveils in reality, everything won't turn out the way we expected it to be. That's life I supposed. That's how unfair life goes for people. Friends (as I consider them) had never treat me the way I treated them (as friends). But I've learned from it and I will always remember those lessons.

From that time, I had never give my full trust to friends. But to some, maybe almost, but not really the full trust I had given to those who betrayed me first.

So much of my dark past in friendship matters, I think I have to broaden my capabilities to understand this time and "makisama" or "makisabay sa flow". That's how I should deal with it this time without setting aside the intentions of making GENUINE friendship.

Presently, I'm enjoying the company of some people. Though sometimes feeling "OP", still I appreciated the way they treat me (likely a part of the group). But as time and time evolves, I'm getting more loose being with them(I can laugh, talk, "manira ug mga tirahonon", give a dumb joke, play, eat, sing, drink, sleep and get along with them more and more). The "OP" factor slightly vanished.

Now, I've learned a lot of things like the expressions: UNYA, PRETI NAKA?, KA FEEL KA? and a lot more. They've knew about some of my ups and downs (when I lost my money that it seemed okay with me kay sige ra ko'g katawa, when my mom scolded me the day I went home so late and let me wash my clothes, when I fell in the "sapa" of Sta. Cruz over and over again, funny right?, when I got good grades), all of those.

"A close of door is an opening of a window"

"Every end faces a new beginning"

or in other words..

"Endings are beginnings"


Yes, maybe that's right.
I found friends and hoping they call me the same.


I hope that the OP factor will somehow be irradiated.
I hope that I can share them my stories with no doubts and reluctance.
I hope when problem comes, I can count on them.
I hope I can ask them for healthy advices.
I hope I can be with there company as long as they want me to be.
I hope they're happy that I'm a part of there group now.


and lastly,


I hope to utter the words " AT LAST", that I finally found the ones whom I can call REAL FRIENDS.

To the following people:

• Ate Hannah
• Kuya Owmeek
• Puppie
• Ate Arpenne
• Kuya Toper
• Kuya Arjay
• Kuya Ramil
• Kuya Joey
• Shelu
• Kuya Owen
• Jason
• Yorz
• Te Daisy
• Ate Gleeven
• Ma'am J
• Ate Pia
• Kuya Lloyd
• Ate Curlie
• Ate Crenzy

"THANK YOU" ARE MY ONLY WORDS.