OVER and OVER

Yes, it is OVER!


OVER as to we're done? (not really, just a sort of asking time and space to think and realize)
It was last November 11 (supposedly our 1st monthsary) when we talked about our present situation and the possible solution to it. We talked about a lot of things before we landed on our main topic and after a long conversation and conveys, we decided to somehow stop what we had.
I wrote this to be a sort of outlet for how and what I truly felt that time and as to this moment. I feel so sorry for what I have done. I know that I did cause her pain, but all I think is that if I would make it longer, she might be hurt more. So, as earlier as possible, I've told her about the confusion of my heart.
I really have this bad luck in regards to having relatonships. Is it possible to be happy while you're in love? Then, the break-ups will fall on the date of your monthsary, do you know how it feels? Really stupid!

I know it was all my fault. I know I'm really stupid! I know I'm pathetic, insensitive! What else?
Stupid feeling!
I just want to be fair with myself and with people around me. But why does it have to be this hard? Is it really possible?