embarking upon coping mechanism

I wake up every morning having some thoughts in mind; thoughts that I find so hard to elaborate, thoughts that would cloud my mind, thoughts that would leave me puzzled and bewildered. Maybe that’s the reason why I need to allocate time to be on my own and think things over (call it weird but its true!! I’m neither emo nor loner, that’s just ME). They call it “futile”, I call it “coping mechanism”. We don’t decide on it, it comes naturally, it comes arbitrarily.
What should I do first after waking up? Should I get my phone and check on the messages? Or should I start fixing myself? It’s a cliché; we are always prompted by these questions.
Different people have different coping mechanism, it depends upon the trail they are in, the environment they get used to, the people that surrounds them, but endpoint is we all need to cope up with the fast-pacing changes in life.
I always envy people who are strong enough to turn down every obstacle that comes their way. They are those people who had enough self-determination, those self-driven people. Do I belong to them? Indeed a hard question to answer. Do I? Can I fathom the circumstances waiting for me? Well, I REALLY DON’T KNOW.
Are they really strong? Or they are just acting to be? A thought coming from someone’s post in facebook. This made me think and made me grapple that some people are just really good in trouncing their true emotions, their feelings. Are they insensitive? Or are they fragile instead?
People that speaks their thoughts in mind, their problems, their queries, their feelings are those people whom you always see smiling. May they tell it on a bunch of friends or to an individual, that doesn’t matter, as long as they are letting their thoughts be heard. And thus, it makes them feel a lot better. In comparison to people who are not open on talking about their problems, you always see them baffled and on a deep concentration thinking about distant things. Those are people that longs to have someone to talk to but are reluctant to broaden their horizons, they are afraid to show their emotions, and they end up suffering for themselves. See the difference? See how they use their coping mechanism? Maybe that’s how they fathom with life’s surprises.
You don’t need to CRY just to show your emotions, and you don’t need to LAUGH just to show you’re happy, you can CRY even if you’re happy (tears of joy?) and you can LAUGH even if you’re sad (but people might think you’re insane… laughs). Do what you think is better! No one can dictate you of things that you need to do. And remember? No one knows what’s better for us aside from ourselves and our creator. So just go on, as long as you think things are doing great then pursue it. If hiding emotions will help you cope up with life’s demand, then (long pause…) GO, and if you’re happy telling random things just to alleviate the burden, then do it for your sake. Nothing’s really right or wrong in this life, it’s bound for us to discover, RIGHT things for us may seem wrong to anyone, or the other way around.
At the end of the day, its either we make it or fail. Those are the only choices, so would you choose to fall short in your journey? Would you afford it? Or would you triumph it all?
People that surround us now won’t stay longer; they need to find their own fate as we would find ours too. So use your coping mechanism to adapt with the coming changes. Use it wisely!