It took me quite some time to have a grasp of how everything is. It took me several downfall and mistakes to get to that point where I just have to cross the line and break what is there to break. It took me few conversations over the phone and exchange of SMS to feel at ease with someone I haven't met personally. It took me less than one month to feel attached. It took me one day to feel that I was important; and it took some few words and actions for me to realize that everything between us was a fallacy.
I was trying to be optimistic, I was trying to listen to what everyone has to say, I was trying to conform with what is usual; but at the end of the day, I have to go back on asking myself how I feel about everything. And I ended up asking myself another question: AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL THIS WAY?
I did cross the line, I took the risk, I gamble, I did things which I don't usually do; I hoped for the better, I was hoping that all my efforts would be appreciated. But it all turned out to be a failure and I don't know what's wrong. Was it wrong for me to break free and cross the line? Was it wrong for me to expect something from it? Or was everything just wrong from the very beginning? Was I assuming? Or was I just complacent? What are the reasons behind these glitches? Was it me or was it just the situation? Was it love? Or was it just not meant to be?
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